Sunday, April 26, 2015

Chapter 52 - Archetypal Model Revisited




In January of this year, I made a posting called "Archetypal Model" to the Kundalini Consortium Site. In this posting, I presented a well-known Eastern archetypal model of the subtle body. At the time of my kundalini rising in late 2005, this model was instrumental in giving me a framework to understand what was happening in order to integrate these changes into a life that was experiencing a major renovation and restoration.

This model can be reviewed in detail by re-reading the previous posting, but a summary is provided here.



The invisible subtle body lies beyond all that represents our solid physical bodies but is interconnected with it. It is made up of three diaphanous sheaths:

1. Energy sheath is partially made up of energy channels that intersect six major chakras. These chakras can be associated with the physical body’s nerve plexuses and gland system.

2. Mental sheath consists of the conscious and unconscious mind broken down into three aspects: chitta or the unconscious storehouse of past impressions and imprints; manas or the sensory motor mind which carried out and responds to bodily functions, impulses etc.; and the ahankara or ego which create all our boundaries, self-definitions, and self-concepts, our sense of I-ness.

3. Discernment sheath, our reflective consciousness or higher mind often referred to as the voice of reason.




This archetypal model provided a visual representation that helped me to understand and integrate this very unusual phenomenon of Kundalini as it carried out its life changing agenda over a period of many months turning into years.

The purpose of this posting is not to review what has already been discussed, but to complete this Archetypal model for a portion not covered in the previous posting.

To complete the picture, we must add one further extension. Just as the Physical Body ends with the skin and then the Subtle Body begins, the Subtle Body ends with the discernment sheath and then the “Casual Body” begins.

What is this “Casual Body”? Other terms that could be used to describe it are the celestial realm, pure consciousness or pure essential reality. It is the place where one has moved beyond false and limited identification with the transitory world of illusion, beyond space and time, beyond phenomena, beyond dualism.



The first three sheaths described in the January posting could be presented and understood on a logical basis. That’s why at that time I choose to end it there. These three sheaths represented the areas of consciousness where I noticed most of the renovation and restoration process taking place. In the energy sheath, I experienced the opening of the energy channels and chakras and the many physical and psychological symptoms that resulted from their opening. In the mental sheath, I experienced a collapse in my previous world view as kundalini energy influenced and modified chitta with its past imprints and impressions, unresolved issues, drives, parental and church injunctions. As it moved into ahankara, I experienced what seemed like hitting the immovable wall of the ego, and a dismantling of its self-constructs, self-definitions, boundaries and unconscious attachments. In the discernment sheath, I experienced the observer, looking on, surrendering and submitting to all that was happening.

The movement to the Casual Body cannot be as easily explained, but there is a story which speaks of it to me.



"It is said that the Buddha loved all sentient beings with a love of a father for his children. But the children did not listen to their loving master. Though there was wealth in their own outer house, they did not want it, and instead they went running around outside in confusion. All the master could do was to sew a jewel into each of their garments so that when they were impoverished and starving, they might discover it themselves and be rich in ways they would not otherwise expect. This was the master’s tender compassion and love

What is this own outer house? It is our physical bodies, sprung from our parent’s union. It is that place made up of our form, sensitivities, concepts, syntheses and consciousness, born of time and space, with the appearance of permanence but fleeting. What is this garment? It is the Casual Body. Inside it is the precious jewel. In Chinese Taoism, they speak of using the false to cultivate the real. Without the outer house, there would be no way to find the real. But this real is an inner secret.

The door to the Casual Body is opened when we recognize the impoverishment and emptiness of all that precedes it. Our physical form, and even our subtle bodies with all of its kundalini activity is constantly changing. There’s nothing permanent about it. The same is true with every aspect of our sensibilities. They provide a window to the world as we see it, but they are empty of any sort of permanence. All of our conceptions of reality are only constructs of what we have inherited or assumed. They are constantly changing as our views change. Even events like birth and death are only moments in time, the beginning when physical form takes shape, and then changes and dissipates. All such syntheses built into our lives are constantly in a state of change. And finally, our consciousness or awareness, our ability to discriminate is constantly changing and therefore empty of permanence.

We use what is false to discover what is real, and the real is the jewel hidden in the garment. And the real cannot be spoken about because it is beyond the comprehension of the intellect; beyond what can be described in words.



Revelation

No more my heart shall sob or grieve.
My days and nights dissolve in God's own Light.
Above the toil of life my soul
Is a Bird of Fire winging the Infinite.


I have known the One and His secret Play,
And passed beyond the sea of Ignorance Dream.
In tune with Him, I sport and sing;
I own the golden Eye of the Supreme.

Drunk deep of Immortality,
I am the root and boughs of a teeming vast.
My Form I have known and realized.
The Supreme and I are one; all we outlast.
From “My Flute by Sri Chinmoy

Monday, April 13, 2015

Chapter 51 - A Zen Allegory

In China, there exists nine paintings which allegorically describes the human search for one’s “true self”.  By reflecting on these paintings, we are able to trace our own journey to realization.  This is particularly true to those who have experienced Kundalini Rising, the internal force that not only renovates the subtle body system, but restores one to a wholeness that is beyond ordinary comprehension.  With these paintings, I share my own journey.  Through your own reflection, you are invited to create your own story

The man to whom the Ox belongs is standing, looking all around in the thick forest.  He cannot see where the Ox is gone.  He is simply bewildered, confused.  It is getting late and the sun is setting.  Soon it will be night.  Then going into the thick forest will become more difficult.

For many years, my life was a sum total of the external events that made it up.  Work, study, dating, marriage, family, trips, career moves, entertainment, etc.  There was little of turning inward to discover a life that may lay within.  An idea of such an inner life was largely absent.  Everything that I wanted could be found externally.  This is where happiness and success could be found.  But something was missing.  How come all these external things, goals and successes did not measure up, and provide the happiness that I thought they would?
       



The man finds footprints for the ox. Maybe the Ox can be found. He follows them.  

I felt like my inner light was being suffocated out.  I needed to change something in my life to counter this feeling of emptiness and failure.   The books I've been reading speak of an inner life that is just as important as all these exterior things.  Others have suggested getting involved in some community activities; maybe a prayer group, or some meditation.  My wife has suggested that I need to be more open in sharing what I am feeling, not to keep it all bottled up inside.  Where does one begin?  Have to start somewhere.

The man sees the shadow of the Ox far off in the thick forest.  It’s hard to make out. 

The recommended meditation time is twenty minutes, twice a day, morning and night.  I’ll start with twenty minutes in the morning.  Back straight, eyes closed, be silent and still, repeat a word and give it my full attention.  Coordinate this with my breath.  If I drift off into thought, I come gently back to my word.   There are moments when I do experience an inner connection.   I surrender to these inner movements.  I learn to love my meditation time.  But when I’m not meditating, everything again gets blurry and confusing.  But I seem to be a bit more peaceful.



The man reaches the Ox.  He can see the Ox more clearly now.  There’s more internal rejoicing.

I’m now meditating twice a day.  Who would ever believe that meditation could have such an affect.  I even enjoy sharing my meditation experience with others, and some I even invite to the groups I attend.   The authors of those meditation books I've read are describing what I am actually experiencing.  I have started to attend some meditation retreats.  They really get me in touch with that “inner presence”.  At times, I even experience the stillness of an inner observer listening and looking out at all the crazy things going on around me.  Sometimes I seem to be absorbed completely into a shining lake of light, and it's ecstatic.


    
The man holds the Ox by its horns, puts a halter on it, and struggles to lead it towards home.

I am doing meditation retreats quite frequently, sometimes seven days.  After a few days, I am able to move into deep penetrating meditation, and I have this feeling of the old person falling away and this new person comes to the center.  At times like this, I feel like I’m really living the life that I am intended to live.  I would like to move away from all those exterior things that keep me so busy, but unfortunately, I have responsibilities.  But when I return home after a retreat, I often slip back to where I was before, or so it seems.  All my old constructs and boundaries seem to return and reassert themselves.  I’ll just have to try harder.  Maybe speak to someone.



The man rides on the back of the Ox as they continue towards home.

Something extraordinary happened.  I decided to go on an extensive meditation retreat, and on the thirty-eight day, I had this experience of an energy at the base of my spine rising up through my body to the top of my head. I was filled with light.  It wasn't painful, but very ecstatic and even erotic.  So many changes are happening I can’t keep up with them.  It’s like the flow of this energy is changing everything.  Sometimes I feel like the whole world as I knew it before has collapsed and something new is coming into being, something better. 

The man ties the Ox down in its place. And waits.

This whole kundalini experience is very liberating, but also a little confusing.  I need time to understand and integrate this experience.  I’m doing a lot of reading, writing, meditating.  I’m beginning to take yoga to get grounded, to strengthen my body, and to learn more about what is happening to me.  I’m trying to deal with all these physical and psychological changes.  It seems like all the old constructs and boundaries have gone or changed.


The man is so full of joy that he starts playing on his flute.

What I had been searching for all these years was there all the time.  I just had to discover it.  Not only that.  What I was searching for was really the true me all the time.  What I now experience interiorly is what I now see and experience exteriorly.  It’s like I am beginning see everything the way it really is.  It’s like the old me is gone, and a new more wholesome me has come in its place.
  




An Empty Frame of the new man and Ox

No more constructs.  No more images or models.  No more cosmologies.  No more Buddha.  No more Christ.  No more clouds.  Clear sky.  The enjoyer is the very source of the enjoyment.   The seeker and the sought are one.


"The light of spiritual awareness, shining alone, far removed from sense faculties and sense objects, revealing in its essential body true eternity, not confined to words, detached from false objects.  This is Pure Essential Reality."
Pai-chang